What follows is my personal account of Monday's session. It's totally factual but I'm not that great at putting my own feelings down.

Regards

"In view of your past record of repeat offences and your previous punishments, I think the only way to improve your behaviour is to increase the severity. I therefore sentence you to a Judicial Caning.....of 24 strokes."

As she completed the Correction Centre proforma, Lady Pandora looked me straight in the eye to assess my reaction.

I tried to look as calm as possible but inside my stomach was churning, my mind racing.

I'd asked for as real a punishment session as possible. We had both agreed the the punishment should therefore be for real faults. I'd submitted my own confession to Lady Pandora in advance - plus pages from my own punishment book. I'd been caned hard before but the tone was never right.

But a 24-stroke Judicial Caning? And Lady Pandora said she reserved the right to deal out extras - in batches of six if she felt I'd not shown enough remorse.....

When I arrived at the Correction Centre there were no niceties. Lady Pandora had ushered me in with a curt, 'get yourself inside and get changed.'

Once in my punishment uniform Lady Pandora arrived in her prison-wardress outfit. She looked stunning - but quite fearsome. I was lectured on my faults and suddenly this didn't feel quite like the role play games I'd played before. The questions were pertinent to my real behaviour - my laziness, my wasteful spending, my selfishness. I felt embarrassed that I'd revealed so much (even if it was a little 'dressed up') for the session; humiliated even.

But the shock came when punishment was announced. I'd read the web-site. Although I yearned to be caned hard and taken to my limits I knew Lady Pandora didn't ever hand out Judicial sentences to first-time offenders. I'd expected a spanking, the slipper, the strap by way of warm-up. Then a caning. And I'd expected to have to request a taste of the Judicial at the end.

But this was different. She said the strokes would be full force - and if I screamed at any time in the punishment, she'd start from scratch again. I told myself it was okay, she'd go through the motions of strapping me to the restraining bench and then use a lighter cane.

But how wrong could I be. From the moment the first stroke hit me I realised this was most certainly for real.

Each stroke was announced by Lady Pandora then applied with no mercy. Each was a challenge to take. That incredible stinging impact, followed by the burning fire. I fought to control my breathing - to ease the pain out of my body. I had time to do that before the next horrible stroke. I kept as relaxed as I could. It was impossible to move anyway with the velcro bindings on the bench.

At six, 24 seemed light years away. At 12 I despaired at only being halfway. Lady Pandora offered me water. But there was no chance of release from the bench - she fed it me through a straw. More humiliation. At 16 there was some confusion over the count. Still eight left. At 24 it was over. I'd somehow taken them all without losing control.

But I wanted to scream the cell down split seconds later when Lady Pandora announced six more. More water. More time to reflect. Then more pain.

After 30 strokes of the Judicial cane I was released from my bonds. Lady Pandora lectured me again and warned me a repeat visit would start at 36 strokes. With an ongoing inability to mend my ways, I fear I may have to experience that in the future.

After the session Lady Pandora and I had a good, healthy CP discussion. She showed me the 36" long, straight, thick, dense cane that is effectively a scaled-down version of the Singapore Judicial cane. No wonder it hurt!

I was able to reflect on the hardest caning I'd ever had. Hard but safe - and so controlled. Proof of Lady Pandora's accuracy was a set of tightly packed tram lines. No 'wrapping', no cuts, though the skin, not surprisingly, was just starting to tear in a couple of spots - hence the reason I didn't earn any extra 'extras'.

The tone of the session was perfect and while there was obviously some role play, the setting was so good I actually had pangs of fear as punishment was announced - and as I lay on the bench awaiting for my fate. More important was that I felt safe. I've had back problems in the recent past and this was my first session since then. I knew I could not afford to writhe around and aggravate an old injury. I need not have worried - I was very secure on the bench. Lady Pandora even takes the precaution of protecting the small of my back by strapping a cushion firmly in place.

I also experienced a feeling of euphoria I've never known in a CP session before. The timing between strokes allowed me to absorb each one fully - to take the pain, deal with it. But then I found myself wanting the next one. And wanting it harder. I was on an endorphin (is that the right term??) high for the first time.

Judicial caning, as Lady Pandora says, is not for everyone. It's very harsh and you have to be psychologically prepared. Lady Pandora knew that's what I really wanted - from our discussions prior to the session. And she knew I'd already experienced some pretty hard - though far from satisfactory - sessions. But for me it's a feeling I know I'll need to experience again in the near future.

Lady Pandora's Reply

As Gary rightly says, I will not normally carry out a Judicial Caning on someone I have not previously played with. I made an exception in Gary's case because we had corresponded for several months before he finally made it to my door; and because he took the time to provide me with full details of previous punishments, including who carried them out. This convinced me that he knew precisely what was involved and that he was able to handle such a scenario both physically and psychologically.

Prior to the meeting, the Summons was sent. However, I did not inform Gary of my decision to carry out a Judicial Caning - the look on his face was priceless. I was aware of the fact that he had been disappointed in the past and did not want this to happen again. I knew that nothing less than a full Judicial Caning would satisfy his needs and his willingness to undergo a normal session with me in order to convince me of his suitability confirmed this.

Before a Judicial Punishment, I prepare myself mentally and get into the mindset. The actual setting of the scene, the build up to it and the way it is carried out are vitally important to its success. If you do not truly believe you are being interrogated and then punished, it does not work.

I place great store on safety. Hence, although I have been caning for over twenty years, I always place a cushion on the small of the back to protect the spine and kidneys. I pride myself on my accuracy, but I am only human and mis-shots do occur from time to time. I try to minimise them and their impact at all costs. It is also very important that the offender feels safe and is comfortable - nothing detracts more from the effect of a Judicial Caning than the offender being distracted by physical discomfort.

Before commencing any punishment, the offender must satisfy me that he has no medical conditions which would preclude such a punishment; he must also ensure that I am made aware of any medical conditions that might need special attention. It is also important to keep the offender hydrated, especially during hot weather.

During the punishment, I keep a very close eye on body language to ensure that enough time is left between strokes for the offender to fully recover and prepare themselves for the next stroke. This also lets me know whether the offender is in distress, in which case I would stop the punishment. Yes, it's all very well saying that the punishment will be delivered in its entirety with no mercy, but this must be within the limits of "safe, sane and consensual". Having said that, unless there is a medical reason for stopping, I would be extremely angry and disappointed with both the offender for overstepping their limits and with myself for not having judged their abilities correctly. There is nothing more disappointing on either side than having to stop a session.

I hope that the above will help to explain why I do my best to put people off of Judicial Punishments.

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